There's something that I need to tell you. Some of you at least. Last year my parents divorced. If you're among the many people who I haven't told, I should have by now, and I apologize. If its any consolation, until recently I really haven't told many people - mostly only those who were likely to come in contact with one of my parents, with I believe only two exceptions.

I was thinking the other day, why is it that I haven't come out and told all of my friends about this. As most of you who know me well, you know I tend to over analyze things. Well, this is one of those times, so bear with me.

There are a number of possible theories. The first, is that I was ashamed. Well, thats not really true. I do know that some of my friends have looked at my family and perceived it as "ideal", and I somewhat felt that I didn't want to let them down. However, I really have no feelings of shame.

Other potential theories include things such as supressing feelings, and other things along that line. But, I think none of these are really accurate. Really, I think when it comes down to it, I wanted to handle things "on my own". By that I mean I didn't want the attention telling lots of other people would bring, and in some ways the troubles that come along with that. I'm sure most of you can understand what I mean by that, but for a few of the extraverts out there, I'm sure its difficult to understand. So I choose to keep it relatively private, and I believe that was the right choice for me at the time.

Of coures, that only works for so long. There comes a time when you just have to tell people, otherwise some situations just become awkward. Parents come up, and at that time you don't really want to say "oh by the way, they're divorced" and make the other person feel really bad. Well, I decided that it was time that I told people. I don't know exactly what it was that made me come to this conclusion, but it happened. The decision was not because I was feeling badly and needed "support". Really, I am ok. So if I haven't had the chance to talk with you individually already, I apologize.

I've now revised this thing 3 times, and I'm going to just stop and post it.