We're still trying to navigate the whole baby at night problem. At first there wasn't much option since we didn't want to introduce a bottle in the first month. Now that we're past that there is a whole new world of possibilities. I was under the weather a bit on Wednesday (even took the whole day off work) and was still in need of a good night's sleep, so K took one for the team and let me sleep 2 closed doors away from all the action. That ended up leaving her a walking zombie all day yesterday, and I just woke up at 12:20am (aside: I should add fixing the timezone on these postings) on the coach with book to one side and little adam wrapped in my arms. My thoughts: "what time is it?" -- "is the front door still open?" -- "why didn't I take my contacts out earlier?" -- "this is cute, I wish someone could take our picture!" -- "is this worth waking Kristen up for, just for a photo?" -- "the door is closed, I probably couldn't wake her if I tried."

I don't much care for statements that include the something like "makes it all worth it", for example "It is a real pain in the neck changing all those diapers and listening to the screaming, but when they smile it makes it all worth it." If you want to make that claim about yourself, that's okay... but it tends to be generalized as if it applies to all people. What if it doesn't make it "all worth it" to me? Am I suddenly a bad person? No, its just that here just doesn't "make up" for all the . Maybe that works for you, but that's not how it works for me. I love my baby because he is my child, not for any other reason. And yes, all those annoying things get on my nerves... ... ... (another dirty diaper) ... ... ...I'm back. So what was I saying? Oh, my point in all this, waking up with my son fast asleep wrapped in my arms, that is one of my favorite things. Here's to tummy time at 1am. I'm hoping he gets tired of trying to move and conks out again.